Wtf, syrsly? -.-

I thought psychiatric appointments were supposed to be freakin' confidential. But no, apparently that's generally only the counseling part of it. -.- I had a stupid appointment today, and somehow the psychiatrist expected honest answers from me with BOTH of my parents sitting there beside me. -_- HONESTLY, MAN. It gets on my nerves. XP I couldn't give him the information he probably wanted because I couldn't tell him without my parents sitting there listening. And there were definitely some things I wasn't going to say with them sitting there. D:<

On some level, I see why they were there. It was a diagnostic appointment, and I was given a trial dosage of anti-depressants. So I can see why they would be there. But couldn't he have done the questioning first, then brought my parents in like my counselor did? That's gay. ... I don't like that psychiatrist much anyway, but still. D:<

Now wait just a goddamn minute... >->

... What the fuck is up with UrbanDictionary and the ignorant bastards that post those definitions? Sure, we all have the right to free speech; fine and dandy. But the majority of the definitions are horrible, calling America a shithole and calling all Americans idiots and bigots... You have a right to an opinion, sure, but... I don't know. Maybe this is my patriotism kicking in, but I'm pissed off. Sure, we have problems, but there are some places where you couldn't walk down the street, criticizing the government, without being shot in the face or thrown in prison WITHOUT trial. I'm not saying that we are perfect. We have problems, as any other country; however, what did we do to deserve such bashing? It's a well-known fact that everyone hates America, and that's fine. They can hate America all they want... but maybe they should go off of facts rather than the international media's interpretation of our society.

"A country hated by all others that has more conflicts within its own borders than it does with other countries. Not suprising when its citizens have, on average, the lowest intelligence level ever known to man kind."

This is how America is described in just one entry. Not all of us are educated; there are some ignorant dumbasses out there... but, still, you can't judge an entire population based on a specific minority. There are assholes, biggots, racists, extremists, ect. everywhere... Not just America. To those that feel that ALL of said groups and beyond popular the United States of America: Grow a fucking brain and do some goddamn research.

Thank you; That is all.

Hmmm...

I realize I've posted like... nothing since my last Whine-A-Thon. I guess it would be nice to post something not whine-ish now, but I feel like I'll end up whining again... I could whine about work. At least that's not something about my personal problems *cough*thatDon'tBelongOnTehWebs*cough*. So, let's see... I just watched my cat drag a long, stringy cat toy all the way down the stairs and into my room, in case anyone who comes across this cares to know. Interesting...

Now I feel the need to rant, so: CAUTION~ RANT AHEAD. >:3

I have this friend in school that is constantly picked on and bullied for her scars and her sexuality, and I often wonder 'Why her?' There are plenty of others that harm themselves and plenty of others that are homosexual... So why this friend of mine? Is it because she accepts herself for it and isn't afraid to hide it anymore, in terms of scars? Or are people just dicks and like to make ONE person's life a living hell, rather than an even dissemination of bullying. I don't get it... One of these days, I'm going to walk around holding a girl's hand; I'm going to kiss a girl in school, just to see if people say something to me. I'll roll my sleeves up and walk around proudly, just to see who makes jokes or shoves me into a water fountain for no reason; just to see who will laugh and who will ask what's wrong. I want to know, how many kids at my school care and how many are just assholes?

I don't even fucking know -_-

... How do I post things here without whining to the virtual chirping crickets? That is one of the great questions of life, I swear to the great imaginary friend in the sky. Anywayyy.... Proceed with caution: Ranting and whining ahead.

I shouldn't be unhappy or upset for any reason; I have an amazing life and amazing parents. I'm not from a "broken home", and I don't live in a socially repressed community... So why am I so unhappy; unhappy with myself, my home, my emotions, my circle of friends, everything. I don't know why either. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere and I never will. I feel like there is no future for me. I feel... like I'm losing interest in everything.

I don't care about a social life anymore. I feel like I slip further and further away from friends. I feel like the drama is overwhelming, even when it's not my own, and I'm suffocating. New friends may help, but actually making new friends isn't something I'd be able to do.

My grades are slipping. Slowly, they drop to an average range. Maybe it's not much now, but classes I should have A's in, I have B's. I care less and less about school work; I care less and less about going to bed to get up for school. I care less and less about life in general. Sometimes, I just don't want to live it anymore.

First thoughts...

I don't know why I choose to make these blog sites... because more often than not, I forgot about them and they go un-used. o-o But hey, maybe this one will be different... and I'll use this as a sort of ... diary to post some thoughts and even works of writing. Hopefully without too much notoriety, because I don't need that sort of thing. Hopefully, just a 'safe place on the page' deal if I ever get bored.